Well it's done

I put my 11 year old back into public school. I didn't want to do it. But I had to. For my own sanity and for hers.

It's not that we don't get along. We do for the most part. But for someone who never gets a break from their kids for months at a time, I needed the break! She needed the break. The break that public school gives each of us. I get a break from her, she gets a break from me and her sisters. Win-win.

Do I feel guilt? You betcha!

I feel a HUGE amount of guilt. I always do when I feel like I am giving in or quitting.

Precious hometime

I was just informed last night by my husband that his biological father wants to come visit him when he is home next.

I told Chris I didn't like that idea to which he replied by saying I was cold-hearted and then hung up on me.

Ugh.

First off I am not cold-hearted. I know he wants to spend time with his dad. I mean he hasn't spent any real time with him since he was like 5 years old. I get it. I really do. I just don't think the time to "find your father - son relationship" should be the first time you are home after being gone for 8 weeks.

This next hometime should be spent with us, his wife and his children. Is that so wrong of me to want?

I don't think it is. I think he owes it to us. To me. I know that makes me sound like a whiny little brat, but my job is difficult too. I deserve a break when he gets home. I shouldn't have to play hostess to someone I don't even know. That HE doesn't even really know.

The {short} time that he is home is precious to us and when we have to share that time with others... well... let's just say I don't do so well with sharing my time with him, with others.

While he has been gone this year he has missed my birthday, our anniversary, Mothers' Day, Fathers' Day, all 3 kids birthdays and numerous milestones with the little kids. We have some ground to make up while he is here!

So it's not that I am being cold-hearted. I just don't think that NOW is the time to host a long lost family member.

Am I overreacting?

Long time no see

My poor neglected truckers wife blog...

I try to write on here, I really, REALLY do. But I will let you in on a little secret. I don't have time to blog!!

It is so very annoying. No time to just sit around on my butt all day typing or surfing the web. No time to prop my feet up and eat Bon-Bons either.

Seriously, the reason I don't post more is:

1. I hate my husbands job


2. I have 3 kids at home 24/7


3. I hate my husbands job


4. I was homeschooling my oldest up until I had a nervous breakdown because...


5. I hate my husbands job

So as you can see I am not very fond of him being away cause get this... I actually LIKE being around my husband. *GASP*

I know... hard to believe in this day and age but I do. I really do like being around him. Not only do I like him, I love him. More than anything. And that makes me miss him more that you will know. More than he will ever know.

This last time when he left has been the hardest on me. I'm not sure why but I think it's because he was home for about a month while he was job hunting. I got used to having him around. The kids got used to him being around. And we LIKED it!

I am so ready for him to be home again. He has been gone since the 7th of August and I don't expect him back before the 22nd of September. After that he will have to find a partner unless his company finds him one.

Have a mentioned I hate his job? Lord I hope this gets better.

And then one day later...

I am ready to GIVE up on this virtual school. This stuff is really kicking my behind and I'm not even the one in school!

I have no idea what to do. Should I send her back to public school? Should I not do the virtual school and just do plan ol' homeschool? AAHHHHH!!!!

I am NOT a very good decision maker. Not at all.

Oh why must I be an adult with responsibilities? Why can't I just go back to being a kid and only having fun??

Whyyyyyyyyy..... WHYYYYYYYY?????

OK whining over. :)