Another "test"

For nearly 2 weeks now I have been feeding our family straight out of our pantry and living off of my stockpiled items. I haven't been to the store once! While I would love to say that this was some sort of challenge I set up for myself, sadly it isn't.

This coming Monday our car will have been out of commission for 2 weeks. The alternator died while I was driving to the auto parts store to have it re-checked. Ironic I know. It couldn't have happened at a worse intersection. Or at a worse time. 6 lanes of traffic in one direction, 4 in the other. Thankfully I was on the side with only 4 lanes of traffic but it just happened to be 4:30 and I just happened to be sticking out into the intersection.

Panic was setting in. I couldn't get my car to start back up. It was totally dead. I have never been called so many horrible names, had so many horns honked at me or had so many dirty looks given to me at one time. Not one person stopped and asked if they could help. One person while stopped at the light asked what was wrong with my car. My response was "It's dead and won't start.", "Good luck." was his response back. Friendly town I live in isn't it?

I called the police so they could direct traffic around me and ended up having to call a tow truck to move the car. As of today, the car is still sitting in the parking lot. Hasn't moved since they tow guy dropped it off.

I am 100% certain this was another one of those "tests" that a certain someone like to give to us that have forgotten just who He is.  I have no clue why I am being tested other than I have forgotten who He is. We don't go to church as we should and it shows. We don't live our lives like my husband and I have been taught. We do know better and we need to change. Our marriage is stretched thinner than a NY pizza crust. My kids misbehave more than ever.

I am an emotional wreck. I miss my husband dearly and can't wait for him to be home. I don't like him being gone for this long. It has been 8 weeks since I have seen him and it hurts. He and I have made the decision to change. For the better of course. He is going to look for work here instead of being on the road. He knows he needs to be home.

This year has been a huge test of Faith. I have failed miserably. I WILL CHANGE THAT!

3 people had something to say:

tracylynne said...

Keep you head up we all all go through a rough patch sometimes.
"To know the strength of an anchor you need to feel the storm" Says the sign on the church by my sitters. I have been thinking about this quote all week.

Wendy said...

I'm sorry that things are so sucktacular right now. It's just not right, is it? I hope that things start to right themselves for you soon. :o)

Casey said...

Thank you TracyLynne. :)

Thanks Wendy. Things will get better. :)